Jesus, I am feeling like Diane did yesterday - paralyzed. I awoke early this morning with a headache, with so much to do today it is absolutely ridiculous. The load of celebrating your birthday is heavy today. Is it right? Why do we do this? We want to do so much to celebrate you that we forget why we are doing it sometimes. Yesterday I had so much going on and I was trying to decorate my house in the midst. I was trying to get the package off to New Guinea for the missionaries who are serving you out in that primitive land and who have no Wal Mart to go to, or even a grocery store nearby. I want them to have cake mixes, pecans, Rolo candy bars, toys, CDs, fabric for making quilts. It's all for a good purpose. I just didn't want to go to the post office with 3 little kids! I tried to get to King Soopers to get copies of my Christmas picture made, and to Office Depot to get envelopes for the letter I composed and printed off this week. I couldn't get there! By the time, I could, I had the 3 kids with me - getting them in and out of the car that many times on the icy and slushy parking lots was just too much. Then to try to keep them corralled in the stores - just overwhelming for this grandma yesterday. I also needed to get stuff for tonight's SS Christmas party - I signed up to bring rolls and dessert. I wanted to impress them with my yummy crescent rolls and maybe a pie. I couldn't get to the store! Thank you for reminding me of that soda bread recipe I'd been wanting to try - I had everything I needed right here in my house. Little Feisty was so eager to help. Sometimes it's more trouble than help, but her little 2-year-old help was just what I needed yesterday. She was so much fun. I had a brownie mix in the cupboard - I realized that was good enough. I even had some of that already-made frosting in the freezer with colored chips of candy in it. I added some green food coloring, made the brownies in the Christmas tree pans I'd bought last year and forgotten about, and put on the green frosting - perfect! Thank you for helping me figure out a way to save money and a trip to the store.
I didn't really feel like even going to the party, but I am so glad I did. This group of people is another part of our family. We sat around, ate too much, didn't even play any games. We just enjoyed celebrating your birthday with a great bunch of people and reminisced about our most memorable Christmases, sang a few carols a cappella, and got home early. Thank you for that relaxation.
But I left such a mess here when we rushed out the door to get there on time. It was still here this morning when I woke up early with a headache. So why am I blogging instead of doing all that needs to be done? I felt the need to talk to you in this way this morning. And my blogging friends have become an extension of my support system - they will pray with me today that I can calm down and remember why -
I want to get to the gym and work off some of those calories I consumed last night. I want to do the Christmas meme - I haven't been able to do it yet, and the ones I've read have evoked such great memories. I want to do the decoration blog that Morning Glory is sponsoring on Friday, but I have another post I need to do that day. I want to put something pretty on the top of my blogs like Pea and others do, but I don't know how! I don't even have time to put in that code to give credit to the people I'm mentioning today!
I have to do laundry, get to choir practice at 9:30, and to the Victorian Tea at 11:00. We're doing all of this in your honor. Why does it feel like too much? I know once I get to choir and sing the wondrous music, I will calm down and feel your presence. I know when Pat speaks to us at the tea and we fellowship with our lady friends at the beautiful tables that our friends have decorated (how did they have time to do that??), I will calm down and feel your presence.
But I need to feel your presence now. Thank you for the tears that are flowing as I remember that You are the Reason for the Season. Please soak my soul with this today. I need You. Thank You for being here with me as I write these words. Thank you for coming to this wicked world to save us when you could have stayed up there in paradise with your Father and the angels. Thank you for the music that is playing. Help me to be able to decide what I really need to do and how much I can leave undone. Help me to focus on you. Thank you.